Among the busyness of life, it is easy to start forgetting about God and doing our own thing. It is easy and more comfortable to do what we know, because we ultimately think that we know best. The good news is that on those days when I have absolutely no idea who I really am or how I really work, that God always knows, and is just waiting for me to remember that.
These past few months have been some long ones, for sure. I have experienced more health issues in the last 4 months than I have in my life combined, and have been to the doctor too many times to count. Sitting in the ER last night at 3AM waiting for the doctors to figure out what was wrong with me, I realized that I am so blessed to have a God that already knew what it was. He already knew what was going on inside me, even as I sat there trying not to make mountains out of molehills, and trying to figure out what organs do what things inside of me (I never was one for anatomy.) God already knew that it wasn't life threatening, but seemed to know that the life I was living needed to have some changes made so that I could be here longer to watch my kids grow and then grow old and travel with my wonderful husband that He has given to me.
I guess this was the push that I needed in order to take my own health seriously. While not a serious diagnosis, the ER has taught me that it is time to get real about being healthy. Of course, both things that put me in the ER could be due to stress, but I know that to ensure that it doesn't keep happening, I need to shape up and get real. I am a little nervous, but I know that like I said above, I can do this with God's help. With Him and the support of my family and friends, some serious life changes are going to be made -- I am very excited about growing old with my husband and holding grandkids and great grandkids :)
